You Mean More To Me Than I Ever Let You Know

So by this time 34 years ago today we were saying goodnight to everyone as we began our journey. We had been through so much of our life together and coming home from Hong Kong and reconnecting with you was the most amazing experience of my life to that point. I asked you  to spend forever together and you said yes. I thought my legs were going to give out and inside couldn’t stop crying. We celebrated our amazing day  surrounded by family and loved ones. 

We popped champagne, kissed, cried, hugged, and boogied the night away. I wish I could’ve stopped time. I’ll always remember us in that moment.
I love you sooo very much Michelle. I’m sorry for everything Michelle. I’ve learned so much. Shelly, words will always fall short for how much you still mean to me. You were all my dreams come true.

I still to this day want to be married to you Shell.

Love forever, Peter

The Moments I’ll Cherish Forever

Just a thought for you on a Holiday Weekend.

It’s short video about dreams coming true.  39 years ago this past August we first said the words I love you to each other. We reconnected 33 years ago and my life was on cloud nine. Our life together was so very special. We made a home and built a family and yet it is the small gestures of our life together than remain so vivid. The holding of a hand at a movie, the times where we could enjoy each others company and try a new restaurant or take a trip together…. a Phil Collins concert….Elton John at MSG.  The moments I’ll cherish forever

Every hug meant the world to me Shelly. Date night was something I looked forward to every chance we had because it was the chance for me to celebrate you and us.

I don’t know if anything is ever going to happen with us again and time certainly is not in my favor, but I don’t want know or believe that it never could. I always want to believe Michelle that with you and me, our relationship and the love we shared is never off the table. I can’t ever explain how much I’ve missed you. You made every house or apartment we had a home filled with love and happiness.

Maybe because we’ve never said goodbye to each other…….Maybe because I can remember every moment we lived and shared….every laugh….every tear we shed together….. every special moment with our children……every single moment….it’s because you don’t mean as much as anyone else Michelle…. it’s because You Mean More To Me than everyone else and I’ll love you forever.

Happy Birthday Michelle

Happy Birthday Michelle!

Dear Michelle, Wishing you an amazing day, Happy Birthday!

It Just Felt Right

We lived each day true to each, an authentic lifestyle.

There was never any outside influence that we allowed to affect our life and our plan. I stood beside you as you did me whenever any family member questioned us or our marriage or the decisions we made in raising our children.

We were never jealous of each other or anyone in our lives.  There was never a part of life that we did not laugh together, no matter the environment, we, together, found humor in everyday life.

I admired you so, and you inspired me.  That is when I knew I had found the gem in my life.

Probably the most tell-tale sign is that dining with anyone else still does not feel right. Never has. You’re constantly comparing her to the true love of your life (because that’s what you were), and you know you don’t feel the same. It just feels wrong.

We were  a team.

If you’re in a relationship that just feels totally right, you like to team up and say “we”, it’s another one of clear signs you were the one for me. You might not even realize you’re saying it, but the moment me becomes we is the moment you know we were the perfect fit.

Was there ever a question that we had a future together?

Every memory of every place, every song, every meal is about you.

I love you Michelle; forever you’ll stay in my heart.

A Mother’s Day Wish

I only wish for one day to be able to spend time with you, share with you and show you how much I appreciate you. Each day begins with me giving thanks to you.

Shelly, I know I could have behaved and done things differently in life and I have to live up to and be responsible for my words and actions, both good and bad.

But, I also know, I am not who I was.

Michelle as I get older you begin to realize that we just need the simple things in life. A friend and a partner to love. I miss you and have learned the harshest as well as amazing lesson.

It may take a day, a month, a year,a decade but what’s meant to me will always finds its way.

Every part of our life together proves that.

I thought that our marriage would guarantee we would be together forever and I couldn’t have been more wrong.  It needed love, respect, trust, understanding, friendship and most of all faith in that relationship.

From August 1979 to forever.  In the end, you could not have changed me just because you loved me.

But I promise you, on every breath I take, I changed myself, because I love you.

I promise you this Michelle, and I truly mean it, if I had to choose between loving you and breathing I would use my last breath to say… I love you Michelle.

Happy Mother’s Day Michelle,

The smile of an angel,  a heart of gold, the giggles of a child, the tenderness of a beauty and the spirit of a warrior; that is you, all of you .

Please give us just one last chance.

You Find You’re Unable To Concentrate

The moments in our life when you just know she’s the one.  You meet and yet you want to speak on the phone at every minute you can. When you can speak to each other and you cannot even keep your eyes open.

When the chemistry is just right that you understand when others talk about soul mates and you know you are each others and never had to label it.  Kindred spirits.

The best sign is when you talked about marriage it was the easiest decision you made in your life. She was by best friend, my partner and the love of my life.

Marriage is not about finding the person you can live with BUT finding the person you can’t live without.  ( This was told to me by someone from her family) . I carry these words every day with me.

 

You Made Me The Best Version Of Myself

Shelly,

I will always wear my heart on my chest as a badge.

You mean the world to me and when I heard this amazing song only one person came to mind…..you. it’s always you Shelly. 

I totally messed up and have received a lifetime sentence in your eyes. When Mike told me this a few years ago I refused to believe him because I always believed we would as we always did bridge our gaps. With me now, rebuilt, better and stronger than ever with a clear understanding of life I only wish to share with you but it takes two to dance.  My hope and wish is to spend my time with you.

Michelle Gersh, you mean more to me than words can ever say.

 

 

 

A Leap of Faith Michelle

Because that’s what people do. They leap, and hope to God they can fly, because otherwise you just drop like a rock, wondering the whole way down, why in the hell did I jump? But here I am, Michelle , falling, and there’s only one person who makes me feel like I can fly… That’s you.

A Smile That Heals Me

It does not take much to figure out what is missing……. what makes me tick. It’s you Shelly, always was and always will be.

If there was ever a person I needed in this world it is you Michelle.

Shelly, you and I talked about life thousands and thousands of times.   We made decisions in life, you and I, that had so much impact on our life. I miss my partner in life, the love of my life and the reason why I woke up each morning.

I choose us and I am hoping and asking you to choose the same.  Somehow I just hope you can forgive me and give us a chance.

Like the adage says, “never give up an anything that you cannot go a day without thinking about. Michelle, I can tell you there is not a minute that goes by that I do not think about you, what I risked, what I lost and what I miss. I love you Michelle.

 

A Chance To Make This Right

A chance to make this right. Worlds came full circle and brought us together, just you and me. 

We built a life, a home, a family.  You were my shelter from any storm and I was yours. This was us, just you and me.  Do you think we can take the best page of yesterday and write a brand new ending Michelle?

I’m hoping for the chance Michelle. I wish we truly could get from there to back again.